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I’ve relocate my blog to the address below… ALL MUST COME SUPPORT…

LOLx

http://www.tabulas.com/~frozenbeads

My father is a selfish idiot…

He’s always tryin’ 2 tear e household apart…

Never givin’ up..

Until we r all fedup, frustrated, and in tears…

Then he ll start blamin’ religon

Not his own but always other ppl’s beliefs

Nothin s eva his fault…

It can be bad luck…

Or incompetance of others

Us not doin’ enough as a family…

Never himself…

I hope he’s friggin’ happy nw…

THat we r all so messed up…

Because of him alone…

It all started so innocently…

Lyke how it normally does…

A simple issue…

That outrun its’ deserved time…

Escalatin’ into e brutality I’d witness so often…

Ur always makin’ uself blameless…

Free of fault and liability…

Over e state we r in…

Mom did all she could…

To keep us 2getha…

Even when its killin’ her to do so…

All u did was rant…

And rant some more…

Over whose responsible for ur sorry plight…

Its no one but u, daddy dearest…

we dun enjoy it anymore than u do…

Presist in ur attitude and u ll lose us …

Well, whats e point of tellin u this…

U already just did…

My heart died along wif e hope i gave up on u many years ago…

As a child u terrorized us wif ur angry outbrusts…

Its never about our feelings…

But always about how neglected u r…

And how much of a burden we r to u…

Look whose talkin now…

Losin’ hope, clingin’ on, no more tears left, i couldnt be more lost

Term test was officially over …

Went Orchard today to see the lights up for the first time…

It was damn gorgeous man…

Took a few pix but turn out pretty blur…

MUST get digi cam SOON …

To deprive mi of takin’ good quality photos can really kill mi…

There was a large crowd of ppl outside china black

I joke with my auntie about joinin’ e queue…

should have seen the horrified look on her face…

Lolx

OB test tmr…

I haven study yet…

what r my odds of finishin’ 6 chapters in 11 hours ??

dun know…

demoralized, disappointed n degraded self esteem…

what jus happen…

puttin’ it behind n facin’ a fresh new start…

easier said than done…

everyone told mi to look straight n not back…

its all sum pretty wasted shitt after all…

jus outta e random, i wana mention i cut my hair tday…

good bye not-so-long hair…

hello even-shorter hair…

thank gawd deres always e fotos to look bck 2…

wrkin’ my ass off tis christmas…

HATE e sight of log cakes now…

why cant we be sellin christmas puddin’s instead…

dey r so much nicer to look at…

got projects to do durin’ 1 wk break…

1 wk break ain’t really a 1 wk break…

okay, i’m cheong-ing OB notes now…

hear e goOd/sob news frm mi tmr…

so far, countin’ dwn less 3 days 2 chrissy-mas…

hope every1’s happy…

Bloody TOOT all term tests…

study plans ruined today…

schedule has gotten seriously outta hand…

midnite shoppin’ cancelled…

punishin’ myself now…

will subject myself to 2-day hse imprisonment…

muggin’ hour starts tonite…

but for the mean time in e next few hours…

i shall slack …

am attendin’ a party in 2 hours time…

ll be back late…

my friends throwin’ a function lata

expectin’ lots of gorgeous food…

problem is…

what to wear…

finally decide upon formal dressin’ as a last resort…

its time to partyyy

Ever get the feelin’ dat u run into someone

be it somebody u jus knew

or somebody u haven seen in ages

but whichever it was

u could jus use tis opportunity

to add a new contact to ur phone book/friendster/msn or whatsoever

but didnt and just let the chance passes by??

I did …

and I hate myself for it…

for runnin’ away from reality…

for not facin’ up to facts…

for afraid of gettin’ hurt …

for livin’ in e past…

for lettin’ an empty husk of a body staggerin’ forward…

without a mind to navigate…

how it all started…

when it could have sounded so promisin’…

often becomes nothin’ but void despair…

forgive me if u see me in this state recently…

i’m goin’ thru a difficult phase…

whereby i’m tryin to forgive myself for makin’ mistakes…

for lettin ppl down…

for not performin’ up to expectations…

for whom it may concern…

i m sorry…

u may think dat i m a coward…

hidin’ from u…

thinkin’ dat everythin ll be okay in this way…

yes, i know its not…

i owe u a lot of explanations…

u had no idea how i felt…

when i heard from others…

how u try to find out how i m doin’…

i m almost afraid to ask…

whether things r stil e same…

as much as i tell myself it shouldn’t matter…

a large part of me know dats a lie…

it does matter…

A LOT…

dey told me i duno what i m losin’…

i do…

i lost somethin’ very precious to me…

somethin’ dat couldn’t be replace or taken over…

somethin’ dat e more i try to ignore, e more it hurts…

i m sorry

i really am…

if given another chance

if there still is…

i ll hold onto it with my dear life…

and nv let go…

i ve never felt more vulnerable…

Don’t Love You No More (I Am Sorry)

Craig David

[VERSE 1]
For all the years that I’ve known you baby
I can’t figure out the reason why lately you’ve been acting so cold
(didn’t you say)
If there’s a problem we should work it out
So why you giving me the cold shoulder now
Like you don’t even wanna talk to me girl
(tell me)
Ok I know I was late again
I made you mad and then it’s throwing the pan
But why are you making this drag on so long
(i wanna know)
I’m sick and tired of this silly games
(silly games)
Don’t figure that I’m the only one here to blame
It’s not me here who’s been going round slamming doors
That’s when you turned and said to me
I don’t care babe who’s right or wrong
I just don’t love you no more.

[CHORUS]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I’m sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it’s, too late, to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more

[VERSE 2]
I know that I made a few mistakes
But never thought that things would turn out this way
Cause I’m missing something now that your gone
(I see it all so clearly)
Me at the door with you inner state
(inner state)
Giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That’s when you turned and said to me
I don’t care babe who’s right or wrong
I just don’t love you no more.

[CHORUS]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I’m sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it’s, too late, to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more

[BRIDGE]
Don’t say those words it’s so hard
They turn my whole world upside down
Girl you caught me completely off guard
On the night you said to me
I just don’t love you more.

[CHORUS 2X]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I’m sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it’s, too late, to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more

I shall go for the mid-night christmas shoppin’ event at Suntec this Saturday… who wana come??

Yes…I know term test is just two days away …before ye think I totally forgot…

But c’mon, how many times does such an opportunity comes knockin’ on e door??

Midnight shopping event!!! Hello! ?All stores closin’ at 1!

How friggin’ cool can it be??

Pleasee go,ppl…

Dun let term tests stop U…

U always had Sunday+Monday to study…

This comes only once in a while. .. .

And its gonna be a really special nite…

MUST GO!

I kissed Family Law Project 1 good bye finally…

Now gotta cheong murder problem, coveyancin’ letters plus some bits of OB tonite…

This leaves Monday+Tuesday to do my 800-word chinese essay…

Wednesday+Thursday to prepare for Friday’s role play, conveyancin’ again…

Saturday-Monday to revise for term test…

And no time for anything else…

Say farwell to happy hours….